Let’s Truly Serve

On September 5, 2023 this Insight Timer live event aimed to refresh, inspire, explore and boost innerstanding of service to others. This included: being spontaneous, going on intuition, interventions vs. letting people be, putting compassion and service in action by asking how can I help, harm reduction, prioritizing, self-care, flipping the script on the argument that helping others is service to self, using embarrassment as motivation instead of self-criticism, assimilation, allowing, receiving, recharging, the four nutriments, happiness, (lack of) specialness, conceit, etc.

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Transforming Trauma With Susan Gold

On August 29, 2023 intrepid healer and magic maker Susan Gold and I discuss meditation, her involvement with Hollywood, abuse, addiction, viewing life challenges as occasions for transformation, trauma, Matt Kahn, lessons from being an endurance athlete, moments of truth, courage, gender stereotypes and programs, and various modes of healing like working with the inner child, visualization, body work, somatic experiencing, sensations, dissipation, and golden light.


Biography

Susan Gold was raised in a challenging and chaotic family system, the middle child of five. To fully thrive, she bravely chose to meet the demons of her upbringing that were continuing to repeat. Her book, “Toxic Family: Transforming Childhood Trauma into Adult Freedom” is about that journey.

Professionally, Susan became known for attaching celebrity talent to projects in NYC which led her to produce for television and film and on to Los Angeles. She convinced modern art legend Andy Warhol to do an on-camera commercial for Pontiac, a talent deal American TV personality Donny Deutsch still claims as one of his best, helped launch Fox News Channel at the request of Chair, Roger Ailes, and on behalf of Disney Channel persuaded A-list celebrities including Ben Stiller, Jack Black, Taylor Swift, David Beckham and more to be interviewed by cartoon characters…Phineas & Ferb.

Susan is a decorated endurance athlete competing in three marathons, and dozens of triathlons and has the distinction of finishing third in her age group at the treacherous Escape from Alcatraz event. 

After living with force on both coasts of the United States, Susan heeded an intuitive call for a quieter life and now resides in the northwest corner of the mystical state of Montana with her beloved partner and their pets. Keen on leaving a legacy to help others heal from challenges she’s successfully met, Toxic Family: Transforming Childhood Trauma into Adult Freedom, is part of that quest. With the same magic Susan created in her entertainment career, she is now leading retreats, webinars, workshops and private sessions to help others drop outdated storylines and programming in exchange for living from the heart in authentic freedom as adults.

Supporting homeless animals, especially dogs, and cats, and helping others up the ladder are her joys. Her pride is her son, a political science major at the University of the Pacific.


https://www.susangold.us

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Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/susangoldismagical

Twitter: https://twitter.com/sgoldconsulting

Linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/susangoldconsulting

Book: Toxic Family: Transforming Childhood Trauma into Adult Freedom

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An Integrating Presence Meditation: Generating Goodwill

After a brief body scan this August 24, 2023, Insight Time Live meditation goes into several techniques of bringing about goodwill. This includes identifying areas of strength where goodwill comes naturally then amplifying. There’s also invitation to discover lacking areas before creating and applying goodwill. Such work is done primarily with allowing, inviting, intention, patience and energy


Audio: An Integrating Presence Meditation: Generating Goodwill

Silent Meditation Retreat At Gaia House In UK

Wholeness! At the time of this blog post auto-publishing I plan to be (traveling to or already) at a silent meditation retreat in the UK until October 15th, 2023. This means I’ll likely be incommunicado until sometime afterward. May this retreat be of benefit for those reading this and of benefit for all beings everywhere. May all beings everywhere realize awakening and be free!

November 18, 2023 UPDATE: For the time being please contact me with any questions or just to see how the retreat went called “Liberating Ways of Looking” with Kirsten Kratz and Yahel Avigur at Gaia House from which I took the pics below:

Buddhist Cosmology Structure And Access With Ajahn Punnadhammo

On August 23, 2023, I spoke mainly with Ajahn Punnadhammo about Buddhist cosmology and related topics. Part of the Ajahn’s comments towards the end dropped from the high quality recording, but have been patched in from a backup recording. There’s also short portions of distortion due to wind to bear with.

My pre-recording notes many of which were addressed are as follows:

Introduction

Ajhan’s knack for taking extensive, complex, profound teachings and putting them into clear, powerful, understandable and relatable ways without dumbing down

THE BUDDHIST COSMOS: A Comprehensive Survey of the Early Buddhist Worldview; according to Theravāda and Sarvsātivāda sources By Punnadhammo Mahāthero [book]

Disclaimer: I haven’t read the book but watched 10 part series and other talks

Discuss Buddhist cosmology, ideally including helpful ways not mentioned publicly before and maybe comparing and contrasting to other cosmologies especially the more esoteric and occult understandings (if appropriate and allowed)

Credit to Venerables Cittadhammo and Karunnyo (previously Anagārika Martin)

My questions grouped into two categories of 1) Structure and Background and 2) Access

Ground rules of what can and can’t be discussed with laity

Structure And Background

One can see and interpret the Buddhist cosmos on many levels but for those who dismiss as imagination then can they explain fully how imagination works and if not a request to be openminded until they know everything about imagination

Definitions for: world, world system, realm, cycle

What influences are there from Zoroastrian, Judaism and others especially the more esoteric and occult understandings (if appropriate and allowed) which are older than Buddhism?

Other than the formless realms are there measurements for the size of realms?

How do and don’t the realms overlap and/or what separates them?

The boarder or area or transition between the form and formless and the Buddha going through jhanas 1-9 then down to 1 (and out) then back up to 4 then paranibbana

Four phases of universe and how cycles end and start — what determines end by air, water or fire?

Which realms include spontaneous rebirths, also egg-born, moisture born and womb?

How does Namarupa apply to the formless realms?

How can we know about structural changes in realms like what is more likely to be similar during the time of the Buddha compared to now?

Access

Anagarika Shri Munindra reportedly gave instruction to Dipa Ma on how to access various realms. Could these instruction be given more publicly today and how might they differ between for lay and monastic?

Is a reason most can’t access some of these realms due to one lacking a body with senses in a particular realm as well as contact with sense objects there and so a human only has their mind and perception(s) to work with?

Can the being now forecasted to be the next Buddha and maybe even the being to be the Buddha after the next be visited/investigated wherever they are now?

Could such skills in perceiving realms be used to investigate timelines, controversies, gaps, inaccuracies, fallacies, and questions people have from suttas?

Consequences and advice for accessing these realms, if possible, via jhana and/or other means like drugs, dreams, trance, ritual, tech, contemplation, hallucination, imagination etc?

Questions from Buddhist Cosmology Series (we mainly did not address)

via https://integratingpresence.com/2022/10/20/dharma-questions-miscellany-part-7/

  • Could Asuras under the ocean, yet not water beings, be due to being below the water table, or could they be in the astral realm (as astral is often related to “water” and/or SEE/SEAing?
  • Could the Northern Continent be Venus?
  • Could polarity — or again, maybe referencing the astral aka distortion planes — help explain the stark contrast of the two versions of the Northern Continent: one being a paradise, the other about yakshas taking humans from the southern continent with wrong view and making them slaves?

https://www.youtube.com/@AjahnPunnadhammo

https://arrowriver.ca


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Rote “Spiritual” AI

Around about the time of redirecting the recently acquired innerskilled.com to this website the idea of AI generated website services came to mind. It only took a quick sentence for these AI services to conjure a speciality site. I tasked these AIs to extract existing IntegratingPresence.com content to fit the name innerskilled. Here’s the purpose I plugged in:

Drawing on the inner work content of integratingpresence.com in order to go deeper inward for clearing, transformation, transmutation, elevation and towards realizing awakening

These screenshots show the “better” of these AI website creation services and my initial impression was one of a deceptive push towards commodification:

This also brought up plenty of questions but few definitive, conclusive answers:

  • The obvious: how well can we discern AI generated content and when is it OK to use? (Insighttimer.com and app don’t allow it for the most part)
  • How well does AI “know” spiritual teaching systems?
  • How does this translate over into teachers who can repeat plenty from books and from others while not knowing much first hand from life? How can we (better) discern this?
    • How much am I doing the same thing (on Integrating Presence) and how much are those I know doing this?
    • When is (more or less) parroting from a book or from others helpful and when is it not? How ought this be done?
  • How much of these concepts are timeless, universal, and can’t really be contributed to any one individual, group or linage and how much can be more definitively attributed to (someone or some peoples) more specifically? How is this done with certainty? How do we know nothing is being overlooked in such a discernment process?
  • If needed and helpful, how can more originality come about, or be generated without more egos getting pumped up?

Buzz words

  • What makes a buzzword a buzzword?
  • How do buzzwords come about?
  • How do individual words, word pairings and/or groups of words play into this?
  • What determines their periods of popularity?
  • How do and don’t buzzwords command attention and translate to action? Why?
  • When is it, and isn’t it OK to use buzzwords?
  • What spiritual words have been most consistent throughout written history / records?

How does all this apply, or not to AI’s role in marketing what humans create?

Why Meditate? | September 28, 2023 “Meditation Q & A With Wendy Nash” #13


In this thirteenth installment of the ongoing live series with Wendy Nash inquiring into meditation practice on and off the cushion we explore why one would even bother meditating in the first place. And what’s so important about meditation anyway?


(Or other ways to) join these Q & A’s when they happen live:


*There’s naturally an ongoing open call for meditation (related) questions for the (roughly) monthly “Meditation Q & A” either by the various social media means listed; integratingpresence[at]protonmail.com or just showing to type/ask live.*



Background

Regular, current and past visitors to Integrating Presence may recall the monthly series “Ask Us Anything” I did with Denny K Miu from August 2020 until January 2022 — partially including and continuing on with Lydia Grace as co-host for awhile until March 2022.

For a few months thereafter I did various Insight Timer live events exploring potential new directions and/or a continuation of the Ask Us Anything format while weaving in other related teachings to these events.

Then, after chats with meditation coach Wendy Nash, it became clear to start a new collaboration similar to “Ask Us Anything” simply and clearly called “Meditation Q & A” especially due to the original intent of the Ask Us Anything’s being “discussions about meditation and related topics.”



Past chats with Wendy:



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A New Reality For Science: On UAPs And Otherworldly Ideas With Randi Green

Randi I talk about new frames of reference in regards to the UAPs (Unidentified Aerial Phenomenon); the investigation of these from the scientific communities; and Randi’s realtime information on what we see on screen including a different angle to the UAPs and why they are here.

Randi’s HAL Academy website and courses: https://toveje.dk and the Reality Sciences and consulting services of her HIGHER ORDER DE1 WORK INSTITUTE: https://randigreen.one

Some notes on topics:

  • importance of contexts and frames of references
  • is it manipulation?
  • what’s the purpose?
  • reptilians?
  • interception and overlay technology
  • milab agendas
  • visions as potential programs
  • collective interpretation angle
  • follow the technology
  • future humans traveling back in time
  • tic tac crafts as monitoring and repair “work” drones — as well as 4D labs — to undo the effects of the timeline event
  • “aliens”, Neanderthals, androids and avian, reptoid, insectoid and mammal features as regressions
  • technology involved in the astral, ionosphere, body, frequency fence, and various control systems
  • android “jolt” crafts operating in 4D and here
  • (re-engineered) maintainer grays
  • holographic-energetic systems behind civilizations
  • alterable temporal & spacial energies behind our reality
  • betrayal, hijacking and harvesting
  • uncloaking of environmental drones due to breakdown
  • “arrow” Pleiadian crafts
  • scrutinizing spirituality and science programs (could also be manipulation)
  • interactive nature of reality
  • remembering who and what we are, our capabilities and capacities
  • reptoid / dinosaur connection
  • 4D connection of insects’ physical forms here
  • the removal of our original fourth dimension
  • a type of satellite crafts of a bigger ship
  • light spheres as plasma based ionospheric crafts
  • how spheres and cubes play in
  • parallel system scouting probes
  • safety mechanisms of leveling out pressure points to alleviate the entropy of frequency effects
  • archangels as cubes
  • rebuilding our energy systems
  • timelines and constructed dangers
  • operating in other realities
  • questions for developmental processes:
    • how do we turn everything upside down?
    • if we were so advanced how did we get so downsized?
    • why can’t we recall what we were and why aren’t we actively looking?
    • what are we hiding from and not wanting to look at?
    • why are we here and what did we do?
  • we are the “gods”
  • no need for gods
  • new concepts and paradigms (which are projections of our minds)
  • constant development (of consciousness to administer and upgrade reality fields as teams)
  • learning and developing of discernment of energy and consciousness

Audio: A New Reality For Science: On UAPs And Otherworldly Ideas With Randi Green

Also see: https://toveje.dk/hal-new-reality/hal-processes-of-disclosure and https://sites.google.com/view/hal-future-humanities-project/new-narratives/full-disclosure-article

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Why is our experience inextricably linked to our body and its place in the world?

A while back I put this title question to Ajahn Sucitto via the comment form included in Ajahn’s mighty mite bite of the Dhamma Tracks newsletter [sign up at bottom of the page]. Such a delight today to learn of this answer:

Well, we’re alive. What does that mean? Animate, sensitive, growing, moving, participating in a context whereby we breathe what’s around us, consume it and are made conscious by it. Consciousness is an intelligence that serves the animate being (me) by reporting on what’s happening around and within it. So our experience has external and internal aspects, it’s viññāṇa, a dualistic awareness that presents experience as a ‘world’ (get to that later) and a ‘self’ experiencing it (better get to that later too). It separates into subject and object. Its program (saṅkhāra) is to maintain the life and coherence of a separate living being. That is – ‘see this so that you know what to do about it’. In the Buddha’s analysis, consciousness is dependent on ‘form’ (rūpa) – that is, something detected by a sense base. Because of the eye, we experience a visible world – if there’s nothing to see, visual consciousness is inert. But what that visible form looks like depends on the kind of consciousness we have – we don’t see what a butterfly sees. Furthermore, mental consciousness adds naming (nāma) –  various programs that determine what we attend to and how we respond to form. What is New York like to a Congolese pigmy? And if I walk through a tropical forest with a native person, I just see trees, but she/he ‘sees’ something far more intricate and vivid. So nāma adds a further degree of subjectivity to ‘my world’ – in fact ‘naming’ shapes the ‘me’ bit of any experience. 

Moreover, consciousness itself depends on a sensory form (aka body) as a platform. It seems separate, but actually it’s inextricably linked to name and form, self and world.

All this weave is further complicated by the fact that consciousness operates through not one but six senses – seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching, and conceiving. That sequence presents an increasing sense of involvement and intimacy, but they all refer to the living body. Seeing places the world at a distance in front of our body, with hearing it’s around us, then we experience being entered (by smell and taste) and wrapped (by skin) and eventually tossed around in and creating a world that extends through time (by mind).  These various sensory messages don’t add up to anything cohesive (and we need a coherent reality in order to function) but mind weaves a few aspects of sense-data and subjective impressions into a workable model – complete with preferences, assumptions, and blind-spots, and we are shaped by all this. Thus we ‘become’ (bhava) an individual self, constantly busy weaving and being bound to ‘my world’. But the self that is created has tunnel vision, it forms in the ‘ego-tunnel’ of ‘my world’ with its self-view.

This tunnel is largely mind-made. Mind-consciousness (mano-viññāṇa) both overrides the bodily sense with its receptivity and responsive energies, and holds the body to be a vehicle, a kind of donkey, or a robot with awkward pains and flushes. Thus mind extricates the ‘me bit’ into an autonomous self that pretends it’s separate from the body and indeed the rest of creation, while dominating and consuming it. Thinking depends on embodied energy, and just as we consume and devastate the planet because we assume we’re not part of it (and yet are affected by that devastation), so we ignorantly consume and devastate our bodily energies.  Hence the domination and exploitation paradigm has dire consequences: externally there is climate-crisis, pollution, and bio-extinction – and internally there’s stress, anxiety, depression and mental illness. It’s an inextricable cosmos.  We have to be touched by it and handle all of it (internal, external) with respect.

But … there is a way out of the world –in this very body. (see A.4:45). So be careful of exclusion. The way to where ‘my world’ ceases is through gaining perspective on and dispassion around nāma.  You do this by sensing how nāma affects your body, through focusing and stimulating (or suppressing) the somatic energies that act as a basis for consciousness. Huh? For example, what does craving feel like in your body? And how about ill-will? Or gratitude, or joy? Two of these impulses twist you up, two give you openness and ease. Bad and good kamma. Like that, you’re going to feel craving and aversion for the poisons that they are, and work on reducing them. And you’re going to incline towards the good stuff. Your inner body can relax compulsive impulses and widen attention into a more receptive mode; it can step out of the ego-tunnel to the end of ‘my world’. That internal process has external consequences.  

However, let’s avoid getting upset or excited about our internal stuff; it’s just conditioned by consciousness, don’t claim it. Let good and bad move through – and you can do that by tracking these energies in your body. So there’s no need to create an identity. Just be in a shared world with conscience and concern, and tune in to the gift and grace of that.

Rites Of Passage With Paula Conroy

So Paula Conroy and I recorded this on Aug 29, 2023. I was in a nature park and from a full charge from the start my cell phone connection somehow drained completely out by the end. Luckily the service we used continued recording Susan and I on both ends separately. I finished uploading my portion from my laptop later after I got back online. The magical internet. If it seems disjoined or incongruent that’s because I removed a couple of parts at the end where I unknowingly talk over her after the connection drops.

Topics include:

  • Rites of Passage
  • Paula’s transition from Corporate Banking into Mature Feminine Leadership development
  • initiation
  • trusting intuition when going through unknowns
  • phases of decay and renewal
  • indigenous wisdom
  • power of telling and listening to each other’s stories around a fire
  • transitioning from one stage of life to the next in a healthy way
  • Frequency Circles
  • levels of consciousness expressed at various types of events
  • parental involvement in Rites of Passage
  • interconnectedness
  • family dynamics
  • integration
  • trauma
  • triggers
  • bypassing
  • self-responsibility
  • gender programs, confusion and inquiry
  • inclusivity
  • diversity
  • unity
  • remembering who we are
  • catalysts for awakening and change
  • what the world needs right now
  • healing
  • community

https://www.thefrequency.global

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thefrequency.global

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/paula-conroy-0823454

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100018794802677


Biography

Paula is a transformational leader who supports women to transition from one stage of life to the next in a really healthy way. She uses the ancient wisdom inherent in traditional Rites of Passage processes to bring awareness to the elements that are required to ensure that these inevitable transitions in life are done well.

Paula’s main focus is to support women to become aware of their fragmented parts, recognize how to self-source to heal these aspects of self, and bring them into wholeness, therefore discovering the possibility of moving powerfully into their next stage of maturity and into their full potency of Womanhood.

Paula spent 15 years in Senior Leadership positions within Global Banking, managing large, complex, multi-jurisdictional teams. She recognizes the criticality of Conscious Leadership of Self as an essential capacity to cultivate, prior to taking on the responsibility to lead others. Feminine leadership capacities have been buried under the current culture and way’s of training, and Paula is stewarding women through transformational journey’s to discover this for themselves.



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