Catalysts For Awakening and Change Series: The Awakening Heart

Randi Green and I converse on starting some of the awakening processes, especially those of the heart

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hi all Ry green here and welcome to another type of podcast video slash

recording where I’m talking to just p and we

are freely talking about the Awakening process and our experiences in The

Awakening process as a couple but also as two individual people that are looking at

reality from two different angles and in that way are discussing things from the

energetic perspective of our experiences as part of the Awakening

process so with that little introduction we will or I will turn the camera

towards Josh and let him explain and describe what he has experienced and I

will uh add in my questions and the little extras that I think is suitable

to put into the mix as well as what and where I need this conversation to go all

with the purpose of giving you insights in some of the processes between two

people who are living the high awareness lifestyle thank you hi there Randy green

here and welcome to a video with Josh depold from integrating presence good to

have you here likewise and I’m testing a new feature

here by putting on a video camera and talking to Josh and hopefully at some

point I might be able to talk to others asking questions from their

experiences of the Awakening process and what it has meant to them to

begin the Awakening process so with that

introduction there was a little chair there that got tou she did a 180 on me we were she had

me expecting something else and I am or not so do you have any specific questions I want you to tell you about

tell us about your Awakening process I began with first with the Atlantis but then Jo just said that’s right Jo said

well what did you say I said well I don’t have any firsthand uh memories of

that time period so I would just defer it to literature and the way it’s

depicted in media and things like this and believe it or not as far as I know my beard had nothing to do with Atlantis

uh but who knows right I mean well actually it’s probably a safe thing to

say anyway my Awakening process it can involve humor as well uh but actually

you know some my Awakening processes I talk about these dark awaken ings I mean uh things were starting to happen

and I didn’t know what what was going on whether or not uh it was legitimate or what was

going on and so it was quite terrifying some of the things that were happening and I wish I could give you more

examples but I’m just going to have to be vague like that for now yeah um but

what happened was I started meditating you know and there was this significant

amount of healing that was done very rapidly during those times and I would I would say then then there was no more

reason to go back asleep um so I had a when I first started it was I’ve said

this before kind of there was a the first time I did it on my own for like

an hour or something there was some really potent memories that came up and they were like then they were released

like the charge of them was then released after they were kind of replayed and then it was like this huge

relief uh and it was more of a healing and then it was the next few days if I’m

remembering right there was some kind of more mystical experiences or spiritually

transformative events perhaps but then after that it was a deeply healing process it’s almost like a Life

review U that happened over maybe a year or two of things that had come up from

my past they call it psychological splitting where things got too intense I just kept going on while the material I

needed to deal with got diverted but all that kind of then started bubbling up

and so reliving these experiences that I thought I had forget forgotten about and

I was seeing how I was not treating myself well not treating others well or skillfully and then so there’s a kind of

a aath tharsis perhaps in that I found myself calling up people out of the blue say hey do you remember this I I I can’t

believe I said that I’m so sorry I was like seeking forgiveness or seeking understanding or wanted to to to at

least reconnect with certain folks and things like this and so a lot of times they didn’t even really remember it or I

was like oh that’s no big deal but it it meant a big deal for me and then the the ethical aspect I could begin then to see

how our behavior and things we do have a direct impact on our well-being and I couldn’t see that before you know people

were telling me things about myself and I just I would uh I wouldn’t I wouldn’t see anything in that but then I could

once I could see it for myself then it actually resonated and yeah

yeah how did I experience The Awakening of the heart and my own Awakening

process well that happened when was that can barely remember it um around

2005 and my personal process actually began with quite amount of stress and

distress uh as part of the everyday life where I could feel that everything I was

and everything inside of me was struggling with the way that my life had

turned out not that I was in any dire situation i’ had had that earlier uh in

2000 with my divorce and where in many ways actually perhaps my Awakening

process began already there and for me the first part of the Awakening was to break down

or reality itself or whatever it was that I was created around me began to

break down and by that forced me into internal Eternal and internal processes

of a psychological emotional

mental um perspectives on who and what I was and what I want from life and how I

saw my life on r tring before my

eyes thank you Josh I think you are touching ground with a very important

aspect here and that is the Awakening process that involves the understanding how the

understanding of how we actually affect others as well as the Awakening of kindness in our hearts that’s a really

important Point too because then after a lot of that was ongoing and some of it is cleared then I had this like aching

in my chest I didn’t want to tell anybody about it because then I thought they was oh we go see a doctor or anything but I I could tell that it

wasn’t really a physical thing but it was an aching in the front and the back and yeah that’s when my heart I felt was

started opening and then I found these uh practices like love and kindness and compassion especially for myself really

helped with that process but it was not pleasant for quite a long time but after that stuff kind of came up to be seen

and cleared and healed then you start getting into more pleas pleas um feelings around it and more helpful

feelings and how we can see that those things actually can help our um everyday life in certain situations yeah isn’t

that kind of meta it is yeah loving kindness or I like to call it

Unstoppable friendliness you know um usually if you’re friends with someone

or are friendly then uh you’re not going to get attract as much hostility from

myself or others if I wasn’t sure we’ll be met with indifference sometime but that’s more benign than than hostility

it’s it’s known as an an antidote to you know anger ill will these type of things

too so yeah yeah just it’s actually just to me the meta loving kindness doesn’t

even have to be that complicated it can just be an absence of ill will meaning that I don’t want to hurt someone or

harm someone and that’s all it has to be just an absence of ill will and that’s meta loving kindness can be that too I

feel is meta the connection between the heart and the Brain field I can’t remember that one that’s a good I think

we can have these uh these Notions or feelings uh and wishes a well- wishing

um for anything for our own brain for our mind field for the minds and hearts

of others the bodies whatever perception however we perceive beings it’s classically um taught as towards other

beings and ourselves but I think it can go further than that you know you can have Good Will and kindness and of ill

will towards you know plants or a reality field you know I don’t think it’s too far of a stretch it’s just this

kind of felt feeling but also people will visualize too in a formal practice and repeat phrases that help keep it on

track yeah and uh feels really Pleasant how important is

kindness and compassion in our Awakening process I would say that it is quite

important especially if we consider that in the full understanding of other

people we kind of need to have our heart activated to be able to

sense and feel and have the empathic

inclusivity of seeing people as they are what the needs are and how we can act in

the situation with these people in a manner that responds to what we could

say a need of our own to be seen heard and acknowledged but also their need to

be seen heard and acknowledged and how do we meet up in between two individuals

that have different energy patterns that sometimes Collide and sometimes resonate

and sometimes vibrate in Harmony and sometimes vibrate in disharmony and by

that feel intrusive and create interference the goal of all encounters

be it in this realm or Beyond is to lessen the ability and their Distortion

energies from growing further into our fields in the way that we are around our

own thought processes as well as others but it’s not just about our thought

processes it is also about our emotional patterns as well as the way that we

energetically interact with each other and whatever meet up that we might have

with either another living being inside our realm or what we could say uh other

types of beings from other dimensions as well as other types of civilizations it is important for us to

recognize that all meetups are energetic that we are made of energy they are made

of energy we all have different types of patterns in our fields which sometimes

in interact in a positive manner and sometimes in a less positive manner

sometimes these energetic patterns are Amplified by Distortion energies as well

as otherw worldly technology or other worldly types of energetic parasites so

when two people meet up it’s not just two people it’s not just their organic vessels it’s not just their emotions or

their mental processes it is two different types of energy systems that meet in

multi-dimensions and are trying to align over a spectrum of multi-dimensional

energies in an attempt to either create less distorion or progression or the

complete opposite what I’m thinking about is that when we talk about the Awakening process

and in the spiritual communities years ago when I began my Awakening process in the ’90s and when I began to look up

information it was spirituality and The Awakening process was almost kind of

intertwined with kindness and compassion and then we shifted into the

alien gender perspective in the 2000s where we had more and more uh different

people coming out there were broad community of of UFO researchers as well

as um spiritual Seekers that try to figure out are their spiritual speeches

out there or uh this anyways I don’t want to go into that but just going back

into the understanding of okay there was these different practices that have changed and then our world has changed

and we have changed and me predominantly on in the highw of Lifestyle Channel I

do talk about kindness I do talk about compassion because I find that to be a very very important aspect of the

Awakening process that in a way has been forgotten but I don’t want to go back to

the classical approach but look into humans today

how can we approach the loving kindness in our everyday life as it is now in the 80s

and 90s it’s kind of went with the spiritual Community those of us who were part of the spiritual teachings as well

as in the ’90s and 2000s were all about the animals and plants and save the

planet and things have changed yeah the I haven’t my kind of

formal point if you had to do it would be to 2012 for this Awakening um so I I

saw it from the outside TV shows like Captain Planet when I was a kid they had

these overtones of saving the planet but I don’t can’t really speak before that time because I was complete Bas program

or you know just glimpses here and there strange things here and there weird stuff but not full on this now the other

interesting Dynamic before I address your question directly here is it seems like this isn’t needed for awakening how

and but it can be and it just this came to

me it can take you quite a long ways into it but I think for a full Awakening

what comes to me is that part of this has to drop away uh

but so much so many of us are so far away from there I still recommend it especially um when it’s helpful you know

now how can it be used today practically um that’s easy I mean we know in our own self-healing work uh

kindness compassion and by compassion what I mean by that is acknowledging pain because a lot of times uh me

included we’re I’m crying out for my pain to be acknowledged and it can actually be brought up internally so it

can be acknowledged internally without it having to be done externally a lot of times uh it’s it’s great to have friends

that will help us acknowledge it and then acknowledge it with care uh at least the amount of care that I can

muster now now you know authentic care and I I have a long ways to go for that you know you actually care about it and

then the other thing is wanting it to release and wanting there to be some kind of Peace involved with this

absolute uh stress that we’re under a lot of times you know so uh these heart

qualities so how that plays out in real life uh just the compassion one’s easier just the simple questions um is

everything okay uh is there anything I can can I can I help you in any way do you need any help uh how can I help is

there anything I can do these simple questions you know uh and a lot that way it’s not me forcing something on another

it’s just being there to and it doesn’t mean I have to do what they say either it’s just showing that that I’m I’m

willing to to offer that and then give that to myself too what’s needed now you know asking that question what’s needed

and now too because a lot of times I will spin off into stories about the past or the future or you know but right

now I mean we can go into that later but sometimes it’s like a triage now now kindness I mean uh a lot of times is it

to ourselves Talking to Ourselves I mean would I talk to my best friend or a loved one the way I’m talking internally

to myself and when we catch that that’s a helpful thing too because a lot of times we wouldn’t speak to loved ones

like that you know but we speak to ourselves like that uh you I shouldn’t talk for anybody else but you know this

internal what we these this internal dialogue that we tell ourselves that’s helpful too and the iCal thing too is

just an absence of ill will it’s this just seeing where is this do I have do I

Harbor ill will towards myself or another you know um which I don’t find

helpful at all in in hardly any circumstance now hatred is another thing we can go into that that that’s uh

sometimes there’s that can be like a last ditch effort for motivation right anger last ditch if I’m being abused

then sometimes that anger can be a motivating Force although it’s very dangerous to to wield but it can give

you motivating force to get out of something but I still think it’s kind of the last ditch effort but this notion of

ill will if the other way is to turn that energy around and say slay ill will so use that

energy against itself so have ill will towards ill will and then it kind of cancels each other out you know um so so

where harm is an act upon you know um so just being aware or not whether there’s

ill will and then feel it in the body more times than not it feels horrible in the body you know it doesn’t do anything

but be unpleasant and harmful internally and a lot of times it won’t have anything to do if I have ill will

towards someone they don’t care they don’t know about it a lot of times especially if they’re not energetically sensitive but I’ll feel that ill will

but sometimes um other processes override it and I don’t notice how bad it feels if you in your own words should

break down ill will because that’s a classical expression from yeah but um sure what I’m saying

here is that um I would really want to inflict harm one another that’s that’s ilal to me I want I want to hurt I want

to hurt or harm someone even if I know I wouldn’t carry it out I have this intention that that’s what I would want

to do to someone and that feels once I feel into that it doesn’t feel good yeah

but sometimes when when um it’s interesting I’m I’m there’s something I

want say here but I’m I’m choosing my words again as always um when I’m

releasing what we could say very angry Spirits they are they come across when

they go to my field and I sometimes have to respond to it because it’s in my field and and then then in a way they

they amplify my emotional field of course they cannot amplify things that’s not already there and my father was a

very uh louds spoken person and he had his very specific ways of saying things

and he could because he was under a lot of stress and males that are under a lot of stress they can they can become

aggressive without it actually being ill will but just to to diffuse or let go or

being frustrated or whatever it is and it it’s not ill will because it’s not

intentionally the yelling is not intentionally oh I’m saying this because I now want to hurt my child but it’s it’s letting go of the male steam that’s

anger yes so and and because I have that in my field and quite a lot lot of the

angry ghosts that I’m releasing are interestingly enough males which we could definitely look into why that is

there are also a lot of females but the angry female Spirits they respond in a different way they are driven by other

types of emotional buildups whereas the male energy because I have that outlet from my father as a

pattern in my field then the angry ghost will use that one as an access point we

can say is there an affinity that because I have that signature already from my father imposed onto me not born

with it it came into my field then of course I have that pattern and that attracts specific type of energies where

that type of behavior will be played out but it’s not ill will it is an

aggression that comes from hurt yes it is and so that’s the first that’s one of the other things we have to distinguish

is this mine or is that is it theirs and then in those situations in childhood sometimes we’re learning about these

things and we need to have a resonance with whoever it is that provides us care

so to be able to relate to them and meet them where they’re at so we can get the attention uh and our needs met so

sometimes it’s a learn Behavior know this right and so uh there’s very few

people I think on the planet Earth that haven’t experienced this and are familiar with these types of things so

yeah the discernment I think would would be something and it’s also about whether I accept to choose this you know there’s

a classic um tale or something like if somebody comes uh with a gift right and

um you know who and then but I don’t accept the gift then who does the gift belong to and uh well of course it

belongs to whoever gives it not me because I don’t accept the gift in the same way is it possible now I I’m just

talking on a human level here is it possible if someone comes to me with anger if I don’t accept it that that’s

theirs and that’s not mine I’m not going to accept that you know I mean you you take that I not you but you know who

have the gift I I don’t accept that so and then then who does it belong to you know so it’s um that’s that’s another um

one way to look at this too I guess for me as a person that

responds humongously to all sorts of subtle energies whether it’s from this plane or other levels of

existence when there is a kind of Outlet of energy that either comes from angry

ghosts or other entities or other dimension or whatever it is it affects my energy system and then I can of

course say well I won’t receive it I won’t I won’t have it I won’t take it then my experience is like like an

annoyed child you can you can only ignore the child for so long it’s still there or the elephant under the rock or

people that are saying well you can just protect yourself from it well not me for some odd reason that’s never

been the the amount of interference I have the amount of things I exper

there would be no way in any way or form that I could constantly ignore that that’s been part of my Awakening process

and by that I don’t mean ignore it that’s right it’s a really good keep you can’t just ignore something pretend it’s

not there that’s not necessarily what I mean one thing is it’s um the other person I just talk about a human level

here though but if the other person sees where it’s not affecting me then the fuel then dies out of that anger of the

other person of course it’s going to be unpleasant for me while it’s going through but and it do I don’t

necessarily have to fake it because it is a practice right if that uh fuel is

then taken away the other person doesn’t really have much um uh motivation to keep on to something

but if they feed on me responding in the same way because what I found energetically a lot of times the

tendency is to match the energy of who were acting with and becomes this energetic game right especially if

someone comes with a stronger energy the tendenc is automatically to match that energy so we can kind of be on the same

level but there’s there’s another option too the other option is to stand firm

and let them come uh with whatever energy it is and this is another practice too and then I can wait and I

can choose what energy I want to bring to the interaction so it is this energetic game like I will then have to

intensify my energy even if it’s an energy of peace and kindness I have to

bring that that up in order to or don’t have to but you know can try this in

your experience if you have a choice of what energy you want to bring to it but then it comes like this energetic yeah

sparring almost some ways but uh then we have a choice the other thing is there

can be a training I feel to respond instead of react so that with the meditation practice I found um sometimes

it just seems like I have more time and space in order to respond instead of react because then our natural tendency

everyone as far as I know unless you’ve lived an Asam your whole life is to react instead of respond but there there

is a choice there and sometimes the the emotional intensity or something is just so intense it feels like we’re crowded

in or closed in and so can we have um it’s ABC is this one teaching a bigger

container so like you take a thing of salt and you put it in um in a cup it’s

really salty but if you take that same amount of salt and you put it in a pond and get a cup of water out of it it’s not as salt so the more space we can

have you know um and it also helps for um having others hold space for us

sometimes all these different strategies yeah and I I feel a very important thing to come in with here is that that the

way that you’re addressing this which is absolutely beautiful is a male approach

it is and and and sometimes it’s okay just to be completely decimated yeah no but when we talk about females I’m not

talking about being decimated but when we talk about Fe how many Fem teachers have been out there that actually you’re

talking from a female angle most of the time it comes from males even if you

have female gurus or what G guras or gurin I don’t know what that yes then

they are addressing something they have been taught from a male teacher very good point and when we talk about

compassion the way to work with a Heartfield and the way to address you were mentioning spatial features that’s

that’s a thing of the male brain when you talk about the the the the balancing as in kind of as a

competition as a kind of a standoff that’s male game it’s absolutely and the

way many of these ancient teachings they address this from a male perspective of

how to soften the male heart and how to soften the male mind so it’s not just

rational logical and this is the act of doing side you know when with the more

energetically sensitive and empathic sometimes it’s just so over whelming and none of those strategies are available

you know and just you’re I’m just in it and there’s nothing you know it’s just just have to wait it out or I don’t know

what like you say cry and you know release or have outlets and stuff so

yeah I’m all for what strategy is most helpful and beneficial for our well-being and others especially in the

long term what what if I provoke you and say is actually not about the man finding the feminine side which is the

classical one because when I when I look back in time and the Brahim that left

many of the the ideas you you have found useful in your Awakening process uh are

built into some of the original ideas that came from the braims that left Atlantis they were one group that left

at lanis and they went to the Indus Valley where they uh in in history are

called the a Hearts that’s that the L lineage and they were based upon lunar ideas part of lunar human serious lunar

white Syrian lunar ideas of how to work with energy and how to work with the

mind and what they needed to develop and they needed to develop a heart field they didn’t have that and then they went

through the compassion ideas whereas the solar people that were already living in

the Indus Valley they were more what we could say oriented towards what we today call Mother teachings the orientation

towards progression working in communities working with the land together and not the individual not the

individual heart because the moment you live um not as what would would say

Pagan ways or uh completely in tune with nature because that’s not what they were

they were highly skilled they had access to fourth fifth and sixth dimension of the middle domains they remember where

they came from and the hearts they had what we could say they came here to

experience certain things they would then take back with them to their own system so they had certain kinds of um

mental capacities they were not ready to let go of and I see that incorporated in

for instance the teachings of the Buddha because he was of that lineage so he was working intensively with Enlightenment

that goes with the cleansing of the mental Fields opening the heart so that the mental Fields can be cleansed into a

higher order type of progressive Dynamic that would allow the white Elder lineages of of the syrians to undo

certain effects of the timeline event and that’s where ill will and these Concepts come in as a very important

because they were male they were humanoids they did not have females they ensured that the female ideas were

eradicated from their systems which we we when we talk about male female in in

terms of other dimensional races doesn’t compute it doesn’t add up because they don’t have that gender division but the

way we interpret humanoids or I interpret humanoids and I see them then my my mind says that’s male even those I

can see that are typically female they don’t have breast they don’t have genitals but they are presented as this

is the female version of the species then they are typically Warriors so

that’s an interesting thing when we talk about gender in in the other dimensions but I just wanted to put in there and I

think at some point we could talk a little bit about okay how do we address this is um imposed on energies from

others uh in terms of being a female but that’s that’s another interview well

there were three things that came up when you said that that I think might be helpful is um the body um belonging and

um now I’m forgetting the third one but maybe it’ll it’ll come up here um so

what is awful awful awful helpful is feeling these things in the body you

know because a lot of times I I find when these these things happen to really

feel the physical Sensations in the body because it seems to dissipate further

and a lot of times uh when I’m unconscious of what’s going on in my body well then my mind takes over and my

emotions take over but if I actually sit and feel it it might be really unpleasant for some time but it tends to

wash through and dissipate a lot quicker so yes the the Buddha did work heavily

with the mind but he couldn’t he stressed the body couldn’t stress it enough working with the physical body in

a lot of ways that that I remember and I’m so cut off from my body most of the time and so that one I really find

helpful too now the belonging thing I think is really helpful too you talk about more in community instead of the

individual you know all these strategies are based on our Western Society or kind of or maybe you know these aren’t really

taught in the Buddhist teachings a lot of things I told today some of them were kind of mix and match here but yes

belonging we all need belonging too so when this comes to community setting uh with inter um relational Dynamics

between all these different groups that’s a whole another ball of wax right I think it’s important to put in here

when I talk about the original solar system Humanities and their the ancient version of their communities they had

very little to do with the communities we have today it was not for personal inter relationships it was for the sole

purpose of putting together different aspects of what could call complex energy patterns that would assist in

transforming the energies of the reality field again also oriented towards the

effects of the timeline event because the outer domain were hit hardest by the the outer the environmental

solidification processes whereas the seran system they will hit hard on the fifth dimensional which is what we call

the mental aspect so thereby their transformational processes was all oriented towards the the the mine field

and the layers of the mine field because they had begin to that code that goes

with their mental their original mind fields and I’m here not really calling mental but I’m using interwin twily here

um had begin to to turn what we call into dark light coding and they needed to restore that whereas those of us in

the outer domain because we had the connection to the sixth Dimension and were mostly positioned in the sixth

Dimension but were only uh traveling into the outer domain for different

types of science projects we had our middle domain Energy System intact but we were working in the outer domains to

undo the effect of the timel event in nature in reality and very few people especially males don’t have a reference

point to that right unless they can have memories of that other than maybe when we were a kid and we had an interest in

nature maybe we grew up out in the in nature and we we had these interactions with nature and our friends in nature

perhaps but I I do feel the feminine can way easily connect to Nature although again with the meditation practice can

tune in way more deeply to so many things the big thing I forgot though there was fear so I think fear plays a

big part into how we view things and how we respond or react to things and the

strategies we use around that so this thing uh called fear is is a huge thing

to work with because it affects so many other things because it’s such a deeply rooted uh thing a lot of these quote

unquote negative emotions are actually different or maybe seem one way interpreting and there actually

different flavors of fear are if you go deeper and deeper and deeper to all these labels we have for emotions a lot

of them are fear um you know rooted in fear a lot of times you know or that’s one perspective yeah I think it’s

important to put in here instead of talking male and female yes I would say there I normally address it as the

humanoid type of Consciousness structure as well as the original solar system or the progressive racist type of

Consciousness that has been Twisted into what we understand as male and females and that’s engineered for a very very

specific purpose linking up to specific reality programs but again uh males can

have the solar system or original Consciousness type and they will then

look they would be more connected to Nature and these processes whereas the

male gender that are in a male body that is connected to more what we call

humanoid processes will be more in their heads so there are these different aspects of uh what maleness is in the

typical male body with the typical male genitals whereas females with the typical female genitals and and we are

now having so many new classification it makes it difficult to to nail down say it’s either this or that but it becomes

more fluent in in these institutions and that’s part of the breaking down of the Old World Order programs so for me the

the the shift I would like to do and that’s more important than actually look and the physical form of what gender we

have is what type of Consciousness do we have how do we play out our Consciousness structure what is our main

um what we could say Focus area to transform and for me it is even though

I’ve been working with people for for years uh I have always been more connected to Nature and the work with

nature and part of Nature and life forms in nature of which humans are part but interestingly enough in the original

outer domains there weren’t life forms that had the human form we came and went

we were there to take care of the outer domains and and Ono the effects it was not until later that there became to be

what we call seated life forms that had human features in this reality field or in the outer domain so for me the humans

are technically in the original version middle domain civilizations they are not

outer domain civilizations so that’s that’s the the transitional point for me

to put in there is that that’s how I would like to see people are you from the outer domain that means the later

seating or you from the middle domain that’s the original civilizations and what was your original

purpose and function here last remark that’s a beautiful understanding

of it and I think that will dis diffuse all this stuff that’s been built up around gender I it’s such a touchy topic

I think all that for me anyway can be set on a shelf for now and I like like just just putting it there and going

with your perspective is seems way more helpful the only thing is I encourage

people including myself to to to go up to this level so where then we can see

this or adopt this perspective and hopefully it will be um based on memories of the past too if I can ever

get there if we can ever get there more so where we can have this based on a

remembering and understanding instead of just a theory which unfortunately for me

it is right now but it’s still such a beautiful more helpful amazing Theory

than gender Wars or whatever is going on out there with all that confusion so but

in particularly for for you and your process where we can say that going into the body is definitely important because

the biofield and the emotional field are interconnected and nature is so much easier for me to do that it’s just like

night and day when I get into nature it’s so much easier to connect and then we could say well then in the process of

Awakening you have activated your heart field so so you went through the process of becoming emotional again but in a

kind way not just as in personally emotional but the esoterics call it the

booty level or the where the mind and the Heart gets connected so you suddenly

have the capacity to observe yourself and others with compassion and compassion there is the understanding as

see people as they truly are and be in that type of modality where

you respond to what they actually need in the situation and and that’s that’s

more difficult than just to ask what is needed now because then that can easily be projections that you are um sometimes

when I’m having a a humongous interference from some of the Lesser positive

timelines and and I am struggling with that and I’m trying to cope with it the best way I can and then you are kind and

you want to assist and you you ask what is what is needed now and that’s other dimensional so I have no answer I have

no answer to what’s needed other than just follow the flow go into the process

and then deal with it whatever that is going from the individual entity that I release and then I go into the

environment and the technology behind so so I know there is a a a type of um code

stream that needs to unfold its content so I can clear it from A to Z so for me

in these The Awakening processes where kindness comes in is just the beginning where I can address the anger or the

hurt or whatever comes there I can meet that with kindness and why is kindness important there it is important because

it relaxes the other being to see him or herself or whatever they are uh in a

light of um acknowledgment of I am out of place I am out of time I have lost

myself I have lost the Heartfield abilities that allows me to

work with a progressiveness that is transformational

and I know this sounds very lengthy but that’s for me what kindness is the

allowance of self-acceptance of what who and what we have become the self

forgiveness that and the self- nurture to figure out what is when you say what

is most needed now the way I would say it is in terms of energy what is it that

I need to acknowledge and accept what is it that I need to look at right now so

that I can continue my progression Journey so I can continue my abilities

to reform myself into a being that I can actually look at and and um feel

balanced with let me put in right time in right place it’s about all of these

the illm mindedness or the ill will or the response the frustration to these these Dynamics are for me when we we

fall out of right time out of place we fall out of our Cod stream so to speak we fall out of the alignment of our

Energy System with reality as it it it plays into us trying constantly to

progress and when we don’t progress then we get frustration then we get anger

then we get sadness then we get uh Distortion or denial or whatever coping

mechanisms that we come in with and another thing I feel is that so such beautifully put the other thing is

really important to remember too here is sometimes what somebody else needs the most is secondary to what I need then at

that time sometimes what’s needed for me to be most compassionate is strong boundaries and reinforce those

boundaries in order to give me the the safety and protection I need in order to

heal and then better address uh to to meet that challenge in the in the future

and and making sure other people respect the boundaries and we have what we need in order to to heal and and rest

strengthen in order to to to meet life on all the multi-dimensional levels a lot of times too but sometimes we we put

on this Armory and we never take it off either so it’s having the discernment to to know that as well right yeah well the

the one thing I would put in here again I’m thinking about uh we were driving

the bus the other day and we had two incidents one first we had a homeless that had pissed off all over himself and

he was thrown off the bus where the bus driver actually responded I would say fairly well and then we had uh a person

that came onto the bus and I will not mention other than also a homeless and

uh he was he was startled that he had to pay for the bus he was not really in

tune with reality he thought he could go go onto the bus and then just sit down perhaps he was accustomed to another bus

driver that just let him into the bus so he got startled with the fact that he had to pay and the bus driver he put

exactly he kept his boundaries and he was he was being strong full in his voice but he was still being respectful

and the other person responded in all ways including uh drawing the racist

card and responding in all sorts of ways uh probably due to his age and his life

experience I would guess he was in the 70s there’s lots of confusion there too lots of confusion fr the what actually

calmed him down was that finally The Entity that was in him made him sit

close to me so I could release it then the human calmed down and all of the

things that the bus driver did everything that you tried to do did not help it was not until the entity was out

of him that he calmed down and then he could just be the human that he actually was supposed to be I didn’t really do

anything other than try to pretend it pretend it wasn’t there and go away but that didn’t help so I’m glad for that

sweetie so this is this is the strong female Warrior uh being just sitting

there absolutely doing nothing in the physical but all the things going on in the energetic that was was happening

right yes so so that’s my when when people classically talk about this how are we to deal with aggression how are

we to deal with these and kindness for me kindness in this situation is what is

out of place what is out of order what needs to be released what needs to be transformed so so that’s that’s how what

I want to put in there and Having the courage to do so too instead of you know getting in a fight or running away you

know how can we turn towards it and address what needs to be addressed in the best way possible and that’s what

you did yeah and for for me since I have I can’t ignore these things if I try

they will just constantly stay in my field so let me me just real quick I was

not NE well a little bit ignored but it was like I don’t want to pay attention to this and say oh God this is so

horrible would you look at this guy and just feed the same energy you know what I mean so it wasn’t like I was turning a

blind eye or the other cheek but I also wasn’t kind of feeding it and freaking out because I knew that the situation

would change and I could I could go through it without needing to get involved of course it was unpleasant but

then you st you you step up and do your thing and it was amazing So yeah thank

you okay so wrap this up there was uh a lot of good things to be said here and

until next time take

care